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It is Better to Look Ahead


 

Every year for the past several years I have done my best at keeping a planner with all my quilt business stuff like social media posting schedules, when quilts were due, quilt store sales, shop hops, client meetings and lots of other things.  I tend to keep several personal things in it as well.
I was on track with 2020 until February when my world stood still.  My family took a truly hard hit.  Those of you that know me know my dad past awayon the 29th.  I know we all heal differently and it has been crazy hard on everyone.  My quilt business has suffered as well.
The planner that I bought for 2020 (photos above) sits in my sewing room closet in a large ziploc bag of other things that were in my backpack that I used to carry to all dads appointments. 

I used waiting room time to do quilt business and hand stitch embroidery.   I have not touched neither of those things except to put them away since he left us.


2021 will be difficult for the first couple of months of that I am sure. I  do have faith that we will continue to heal our hearts and continue on the search for our new normal.  Hopefully this pretty little planner helps me on this journey.

It is better to look ahead and prepare than to look back and regret ~Jackie Joyner-Kersee

It does seem like it is getting easier to write how I'm feeling about things instead of closing the door in my brain where all this years memories are stored.  Mom and I talk about him nearly every day and some days it feels like he could still be here with us. We laugh, we cry and we keep on keeping on.

One thing is for certain I think we are all ready for a new year, 2020 just wasn't our best. 


Thanks for reading my rambling.  Have a great weekend! 


always

tammyc


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