Saturday, December 8, 2012

Christmas Spirit


Even October the cat is showin' his Christmas spirit   :)

It seems like it has been a few years since I last felt the Christmas spirit in my heart.  I'm sure it stems from losing the rock of our family (in both my family and Stephens family)  I had always heard people say that when the mother of the family passes the the family just falls apart.  I have now lived that in both of our families and I firmly believe it to be true.
Now my family does try to do a huge Christmas dinner and such but with everyone going here and there to see all the in laws (& outlaws) we very seldom are ever all together at the same place at the same time.   And our family has multiplied so much that we stopped giving individual gifts a long time ago, relying on a version of the dirty Santa gift swap game.  I don't know about you but I like to give gifts.  They don't have to be crazy expensive gifts but I enjoy the though process that goes into giving individual gifts and I miss that.
It's this time of the year that I miss my grandma the most because she was the glue that held us all together our rock our tradition.  Without her it really just isn't the same. (but we try) 

There is much to be said about Stephens family but not here and not by me. While she was ill and in the hospital the sisters had already began coming unglued and after her passing it just got worse rather quickly. And here 13 years later they don't hardly speak to each other, never mind spending a nice holiday together.(it kinda split down the middle)  His family is so out of touch with each other that my daughter saw her great aunt a few nights ago at the school only to ask me later if said aunt "don't like me anymore"  I didn't have answers for the questions she was asking but did inform her that said aunt and the rest of the aunts family was missing out because my Brittnie is a pretty amazing girl and everyone should know her like I do.  It really breaks my heart.

So Christmas spirit for me has been so limited in the past that I made a choice this year to just let all that mess not get me down. I am going to cook, bake, sew, play (& sing along with) Christmas music and buy gifts and not worry about the drama.  (say a prayer for anyone who may hear me sing...I really am horrible)

The girls put the tree up for me this year while I was gone to work.  It was a nice surprise to walk in the door and be greeted by all our Christmas memories hanging on the poor little tree that we are using this year.  Our nice big tree finally seen its last Christmas last year and we are using a small one my parents used for years.  They are happily living at the lake in their 5th wheel and had to buy a little table top tree. (thank goodness or we wouldn't have had one this year) 

I know it is already the 8th and I have only purchased 1 gift and a couple of stocking stuffers, but I plan to spend time this week completing it all and relax and spend the rest of the month baking or sewing or ya know go to whatever Christmas party or get together pops up.

I have so much Christmas spirit this year that I even livened up my blog.  Hope it puts a smile on your face

Well until later.

Remember why we celebrate (not for gifts and food)  but for the birth of Christ and enjoy every minute of this wonderful season.

Feel free to share what traditions really get you into the spirit of Christmas, I would love to hear about them all.

Thanks for stopping by, have a great day.
tc

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